Im so tired of hurting

I miss fun in my life

why do I hurt for you and you dont give me ANYTHING?

Life is too short to love like this.



and to NOT be loved like this.

im so tired of crying for you

people tell me its the path i need to take

to heal.



I have a feeling you havent travelled this path.

I think you skipped it and took a taxi

to a new world and lover.



It all started with IMAGINE ON THE PIANO...

one lonely nite

you so far away

you could romance me over the phone so easily



I still love the OLD you

The kind you

the one even your parents are missing now.



No one likes who you have become.

Its the ugly side of an EGO that attracts the women you desire

for now.



You had a beautiful, talented educated sexy wife.



you gave her up for the gym and muscles...



How I ache for the old you...the romantic you.



Why did you kill that side?

Why have you left me heart broken?



I need fun back in my life.

This is NOT me.

this sad pathetic example of a strong woman



I am everything without you.



I am happy without you..



BUt I am miserable without you.



and, i am lonely without you.



I feel like you have slit my wrists

and you listen with enjoyement as the blood slowly drips

onto the wedding album.



and you enjoy every oounce of power I am handing you by writing this

you dont read this though.



you have better things to do than take any sort of responsiblity for

the hurt you have caused. Not only me but your family as well.



The only person that truely likes who you are is your boss b'c you

make HIM look good.

oh the lil' 20 year olds that probably think you are dreamy.



my mother asked me today if you got into steroids.

YOu know, with that gay weighlifter friend of yours that

took you away from me, i wouldnt be surprised.



Tell him thank you for me will you?



He had no idea what he was doing.



hell.

you guys are probably lovers at this point.



he was, afterall, the end all to your self esteem issues...